*CW: Death & Dying* When I lost my grandmother in 2019, my whole world went seismic and a deep fault line split the life I had known and the one that was to be mine moving forward. The aftershocks lasted for a couple years, shattering my family, my homelife, and entire belief systems I’d built much of my personality around. It seems strange for one person to have been so impactful, to have been the very marrow strengthening the bones of our bloodline, the loss like cracks in

The seven Hebrew crowned letters—Shin, Ayin, Tet, Nun, Zayin, Gimel, and Tzaddi—spell Satan Az Gatz, revealing an ancient alchemical map of transformation. These letters trace the path from separation (Satan) through fierce discrimination (Az) to the bridge of grace (Gatz). Four of these crowned paths lead directly to Tiphareth, the heart center where solar consciousness awakens.

I’ve been a magic-seeker since I was a child running through the woods and getting pricked on the heel in a fairy ring (true story) and,...